Four Years Gone

Don it has been four. years since I posted, not because I gave up on remembering but because remembering brought so much pain. I am back and these four years have been an eternity without you. Every day I go through the process of just maintaining and living. I very much stay to myself. All our friends are now gone and a friend I reunited with in November died in January of Covid Complications. We were excited to have come back together and planned many "girl" things to do. Now again, the emptiness is here. I will be 78 shortly and all I seem to focus on is how much I miss you and want you back to continue the good parts of our life. I spend time with the kids but they all have thier lives and it is not thier obligation to make sure I am not lonely or depressed. I welcome the nights as it takes me from this world for several hours, then I wake up and it starts all over. Miss you and love you.